be a waste of space
be a nuisance
My Rainy Days (2009) dir. Yuri Kanchiku
a list of wishful goals for this week:
- join a gym on monday
- leave the house at least once a day
- don’t let your mind betray your body
- be productive
- clean your fucking bedroom (its a disgusting mess that I’ve somehow found comfort in.) and keep it clean.
- Sleep regularly. at night. more than a few hours here and there.
- take your fucking medication (I always regret it)
- follow your gut, and be the person you know you should be
most likely scenario:
- hang around you bed, flipping through books and tracking shopping orders
- youtube shit. a new age way to mind numb the masses.
- binge. cry. purge. the usual self hate kind of practice
- weight in the morning, double check…triple check.
- contemplate the benefits of showering for far too many days to be appropriate, that till you’re being forced into seeing people outside your crazy immediate family
- fuck around tumblr/mpa
- and smoke some more
a handful of pistachios, too much coffee and a liter of water. Its like I’m almost a all american girl.
Melbourne and Alarni